PD Photog for Hire

Several months back, I applied for disability.  It was a hard decision but I am not longer able to do the work I used to do.  In my previous life (pre-PD), I was a photographer and videographer.  The wonderful people at social security decided that I can still do this work “as normally performed in the national economy.”  Really?  It is hard enough to admit that you can’t do your job anymore, but to have to defend yourself and admit your frailties to a complete stranger is humiliating.

I have Parkinson’s.  I have tremors, rigidity, and  balance issues.  Stress makes all that worse.  How do you think I should advertise my services?

Available for hire:  The PD Photo Gal!

Got a wedding or other special event coming up next year?  The PD Photo Gal has got you covered.  If the shots of the first look, first kiss and father/daughter dance come out blurry due to shaking hands, she will be happy to retake them at another time.

Have a new addition in the family? The PD Photo Gal is happy to capture those special newborn moments.  She can even lull your little one to sleep with her shaking arms.  Do not be alarmed if she tips over when squatting down to get that perfect shot.  Special discount offered if you help her back to her feet.  Extra special discount offered is you rescue the camera before it hits the floor.

Did your team make the finals and you want a highlight video?  The PD Photo Gal is the one for you!  For best results, please be sure to schedule all games according to her meds schedule.

I am appealing the decision made by social security.  While I wait for word, you can find me down at the local social security office looking for my dignity and  putting my business cards on their bulletin board. They think I am well qualified.   I’m sure I can find someone to hire me there.

Knocked Off My Pedestal

It took a while for me to get my confidence back after my PD diagnosis but I did get it back.  I am a fighter and I am strong. I work really hard at staying healthy.  When you are doing well, it is easier to deny your symptoms and think you are winning the battle.  I found out that it only takes one little thing to snatch that confidence back.  For me it was a fall.  I fell.  I can’t believe that I fell!  Fortunately, other than a small bruise on my hand, I didn’t get hurt.   I was carrying a chair through a doorway while dressed in a slim skirt and heels. I admit now that it was a stupid idea.   Of course, I had to do my less than graceful dance with the floor in front of a group of friends. I don’t know if I caught my heel on the rug or if the chair threw me off balance.  I guess it doesn’t really matter.  Someone without PD, would probably have shaken off their embarrassment  and moved on.  I felt my confidence being ripped out from under me once again.  The insecurity of what this illness can do to me reared its ugly head.  All night, I questioned myself.  “Am I getting worse?  Did my PD make me fall?”  My rational side knows that  anyone could have fallen doing what I was doing.  The cold, hard reality is that I do need to be more careful. Like it or not, I have Parkinson’s.   I cannot afford an injury.  If I get injured, I will have to scale back my exercise. Exercise helps keep my symptoms at bay and keeps my confidence up.  So today, the day after my confidence bucket got dumped out all over the floor, I went back to the gym.  I worked hard and I even kicked some ass. My confidence bucket is filling back up drop by sweaty drop.  Hear that PD? You can’t rob me of everything. I can do this hard thing and  I will fight you every step of the way.